Geia sas....
Xathika ligo... Polles endiaferouses apories vlepw... K tha apantisw kat eutheian se oles. I prwti p thimamai einai g to an tha ekana sxesi me fantaro. Simfwnw apolita me tin apopsi twn koritsiwn... An tn iksera apo palia k iksera panw katw ti anthrwpos einai k an imoun erwteumeni, d tithetai thema, tha ekana. An twra molis tn eixa gnwrisei, diskola tha to tolmousa k oute nomizw pws tha epairna to risko gt kserw poso diskola einai k de m aresei na paizw me tn psixologia kanenos. Poso mallon me tn psixologia enos fantarou. Dld de tha thela na pw ante as to dokimasw k opou vgei gt pes oti egw tlk de mporousa. O allos pws tha to epairne? Gi auto an itan kainouria gnwrimia, poli xlwmo g sxesi...
Egw me to diko m fantaraki eimai 4,5 xronia k pali itan stigmes p diskoleutika poli mi kserontas pws na antimetwpisw k pws na xeiristw katastaseis... Kai tn kserw 7 xronia apo ta opoia ta 5sxedon eimaste mz. Fantasou dld na min tn iksera katholou...
Apantw stin alli erwtisi: ti tha kana an eprepe na figei se nisi 2xronia. An eixa mia sxesi san auti p exw twra dld arxika makroxronia, an iksera tn allo toso kala wste na kserw poios einai k an imoun demeni mz t k fisika an ipirxe agapi, sigoura tha to tolmousa. K as thisiaza h kalitera k as afina polla pragmata pisw m. Nai sigoura tha to ekana. An iparxei agapi ola ginontai. K an agapousa d nomizw oti tha mporousa na xwrisw g tetoio logo...
K apantwntas k stin teleutaia erwtisi p itan an thimamai kala an fovomaste perissotero tin apistia i to na ksethwriasoun kapoia sinaisthimata exw na pw oti 9 peripou mines twra d eniwsa pote oti mporei kati na allaksei sta sinaisthimata mas. Oute sta dika m, oute sta dika t. Isa isa niwthw oti i 'dokimasia' t starou ekane akoma pio dinato auto p eixame k mas ekane na katalavoume polla... Tin apistia nai ti fovamai. Poli. K egw k ekeinos. Alla auto einai megalo k polilpoko thema gt zileuoume k oi 2ipervolika. Otan to skeftomai logika apokleiw to endexomeno apistias apo meria t gt tn empisteuomai k d pisteuw oti tha m ekane kati tetoio alla o fovos k i anasfaleia d pauei na me kiniga. Oso g mena... de skeftika eilikrina oute lepto na kanw kati me kapoion allo, oute ap to mialo de m perase. Sixainomai tn eauto m mono k mono stin idea. Egw eniwtha k niwthw tipseis otan vgainw eksw gt lew to palikari m pizei mesa k egw 'diaskedazw', ti leme twra...
A! Thimithika k alli erwtisi... Perifani i stenoxwrimeni...
Egw tha apantisw k ta dio... Stenoxwrimeni g tous profaneis logous. Perifani niwthw an k oxi panta. To gt einai allo thema alla epeidi tha dimiourgithoun entaseis opws k tn proigoumeni fora p anefera kati sxetiko, as mi thixtei kalitera... Esti k alliws auto einai to ligotero p exei simasia...
Auta...
Oute ki egw d exw katalavei pws perase etsi o kairos. M to legane oti tha perasei grigora k d to pisteua. O prwtos kairos pernouse vasanistika arga alla twra oute p katalavainw pws pernane oi meres. K ekeinos to idio leei. 9mines... Sa xthes m fainetai i prwti t mera sto strato(ax thee m ti klama eixa riksei ekeini ti mera k genika tous 2prwtous mines...De tha to ksexasw pote), i wrkomosia... Trexei o xronos... Twra, teleutaioi 3mines... Exw akousei d pernane me tpt, g na doume...
Ypomoni se olous k se oles....
Filakia Polla!